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i drove home from point reyes, away from acacia retreat this morning, to come to work.  i thank god for his greater knowledge for things of the future.  the storm last night had put a tree in the middle of the road blocking the path to the hostel.  i guess if i hadn't had to work this weekend, trevor and may would have had to trek 6 miles of windy mountain road up to the hostel.  praise god in all things, i suppose  = ]

it's funny because at retreat, i guess we (i) are unknowingly on our best behavior.  it's time with god, time with acacia, you know..  i don't think it's done purposely or as a front.  i think it's just the mindset that we have.  we even pray that people come laying their burdens down and finding peace in god and his church.  but what happens when we're removed from that?  3 hours later, i'm sitting in my office talking to patients and nurses and getting the usual in and out flow of employees through the doors.  i pray that my attitude, actions and my words are holy and pleasing to god.  paul says this is worship too!  not just singing along with other acacia people in a room.

inevitably, there will be patients who test my patience.  but i think this could be fun.  bring it on!  hehe  it's like a test of constantly asking for god's grace and transmitting that onto other people.

i'm determined this weekend to rejoice.  rejoice always.  again, i say rejoice!  and pray.  oh man.  there's never a shortage of things to pray for these days.  funny that i'm reading calm my anxious heart right now.  cuz well.. that's like story of my life  >_<  hehe  bahhh

it's easy to keep thinking "i'd rather be..." but lordship means obedience and trusting that his ways are higher than mine. 

turn your eyes upon jesus
look full in his wonderful gaze
and the things of earth will grow strangely dim
in the light of his mercy and grace

:D

god is always there.  he's my best friend.  his ears never turn away from me..
but sometimes.. a lot of times.. i think it'd be nice to talk to a real person.